black is back
the 80's are back
high tops are back
and
XANGA
yeah it's back!

my flight for haiti leaves in 37 hours and I am a unprepared in so many ways.  Let me count the ways that I could be more ready to go to this hemisphere's poorest country.
1. Prayer, not enought not doing it enough not listening enough
2. Packing if I could only find a starting point
3. Questions, am I: scared, worried, nervous, ready, doing this full heartedly, doing this half heartedly, willing, going with the right mindset.... the problem with all of this is that I really haven't taken the time to sort out what I feel about each one.
In 37 hours I will plunge into overseas missions, Many people have stated that I am paying to go the poorest country.  They tell me how hard or how they get paid to bomb places like this and I know that I have a different mind set than others.  I am following a desire to serve Christ. I know that I am not the best christian.  Please don't look at me for an example I have much to learn and to experience and to be broken of and to be changed.  I am a work in progress.  I know that when God said go to the ends of the earth he was talking to me.  Missions may not be your thing and thats fine to a point.  If you are following God and he puts a desire in your heart follow it if you dont then you are doing something wrong.  I guess I just know that I need to be serving and loving and being real to those that the world hates.  The poor the different the lonely the young the old the foreign the strange.  hmm.  I think I still need to think some more.
and maybe pack
till
then

laura t